Im gonna love you like im gonna lose you

im currently in love with Meghan's new song (like what my title says). Aww.. isnt it sad? i mean loving people like you're gonna lose them someday. Okay, im literally repeating the same thing. lol. no explanation needed, since the meaning is quite obvious and not a metaphor either.

Anyway.. Tomorrow's Monday. Sigh. Why do we only have 2 days for weekends.. I felt like it was just Friday this morning and BOOM! im forever amazed how time can be so tricky. WEll F*ck you Time. i wish money could grow on trees & we wouldn't have to move our ass to work anymore. FFUUUUUUU.... oh nvm, look at the bright side, 5 more days til salary. Yeay. I just have to survive 5 more days. :):):)

Could it be..

Depressive disorder? ive realised no matter what i do, im always depressed, angry and jealous. Its like my happy mood is gone to somewhere else.. Oh happy, where did you go? i need you back please. im tired of crying myself to sleep, im tired of holding back, tired of pretending, and most of all, im tired of being tired..-.-  Every night im having a hard time to go to sleep. Because like most people would experience, when you're about to sleep, that's where you brain starts to work & think like a machine. Gosh, how i miss being young again. No issues. Sigh. :( I seriously need a break.