Could it be..

Depressive disorder? ive realised no matter what i do, im always depressed, angry and jealous. Its like my happy mood is gone to somewhere else.. Oh happy, where did you go? i need you back please. im tired of crying myself to sleep, im tired of holding back, tired of pretending, and most of all, im tired of being tired..-.-  Every night im having a hard time to go to sleep. Because like most people would experience, when you're about to sleep, that's where you brain starts to work & think like a machine. Gosh, how i miss being young again. No issues. Sigh. :( I seriously need a break.